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Discuss When Pain Forms Us

When Pain Forms Us


When a doctor steps into the room and tells you, 'I'm sorry ... it's malignant," you have heard words that are about the hardest for anyone to hear. They are words that pack an emotional wallop, and can shatter your sense of wholeness in an instant!

miracleboy's picture

Terminal Illness

I faced that same fatal diagnosis when I was diagnosed with Congenital Hepatic Fibrosis. There were only five cases in the world and all were children who died within a year of diagnosis. This happened before I was born again. I faced my sentence with resignation. I had no hope in life and thought I was ready to go. But God's time is not our time. It wasn't until my marriage was self diagnosed as terminal that I began to search the Spiritual realm. I came to the same realization as the thief on the cross. I deserved my sentence. I destroyed my own marriage. I knew in my heart that Jesus was the only answer to all questions and I submitted my whole life to Him. Months later, with my wife still demanding a divorce; I visited an aunt in another state. I woke up in the middle of the night with God speaking to my heart. His words were you know what you must do. In my heart I realized God was telling me to give my wife what she wanted. I cried, I begged, I became angry. All responses were met with silence. Then the words of Jeremiah 29:11-13 came to mind. I couldn't understand how God who hated divorce would tell me to give my wife what she wanted. So I drove home and borrowed money, went to a Lawyer and filed for a divorce. After telling my wife what I had done, she asked if we could talk and agreed to go to a counselor with me. the divorce was put on hold. She agreed to go to church with me and 6 months later she gave her life to the Lord. So the valley of the shadow of death became so real to me. The verse, "Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for Thou art with me", became a fixture in my heart. I learned through all my trials that God is with me. I became a prison chaplain and am now retired but still ministering in prison. My lesson was that we are all terminal or in a terminal situation. The only answer on this entire planet is found in Jesus Christ alone. Oh, and about my fatal illness? god saw fit to heal me and extend my life to serve Him and learn to be the husband my wife always desired. Although the world may diagnose our medical condition, our relationships with others, our financial situation, etc. as terminal and without hope, I learned one important message, "Nothing is impossible with God."

Ewandling's picture

Pain and Suffering

I wanted to thank you for this article that I think was honest and well-written. While I have not personally experienced threats to my life at the level you have, it seems I have people all around me who are. This is going to be a great help to me and to them as we walk through some things together.