39. I fear, I say, greatly
for thee, lest, when thou boastest that thou wilt follow the Lamb
wheresoever He shall have gone, thou be unable by reason of
swelling pride to follow Him through strait ways. It is good for
thee, O virgin soul, that thus, as thou art a virgin, thus
altogether keeping in thy heart that thou hast been born again,
keeping in thy flesh that thou hast been born, thou yet conceive of
the fear of the Lord, and give birth to the spirit of salvation.21422142
“Fear,” indeed, “there is not in charity, but perfect
charity,” as it is written, “casteth out fear:”21432143 but fear
of men, not of God: fear of temporal evils, not of the Divine
Judgment at the last. “Be not thou high-minded, but fear.”21442144 Love thou
the goodness of God; fear thou His severity: neither suffers thee
to be proud. For by loving you fear, lest you grievously offend One
Who is loved and loves. For what more grievous offense, than that
by pride thou displease Him, Who for thy sake hath been displeasing
to the proud? And where ought there to be more that “chaste fear
abiding for ever and ever,”21452145 than in thee, who hast no thought
of the things of this world, how to please a wedded partner; but of
the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord?21462146 That other fear is not in charity,
but this chaste fear quitteth not charity. If you love not, fear
lest you perish; if you love, fear lest you displease. That fear
charity casteth out, with this it runneth within. The Apostle Paul
also says, “For we have not received the spirit of bondage again
to fear; but we have received the spirit of adoption of sons,
wherein we cry, Abba, Father.”21472147 I believe that he speaks of that
fear, which had been given in the Old Testament, lest the temporal
goods should be lost, which God had promised unto those not yet
sons under grace, but as yet slaves under the law. There is also
the fear of eternal fire, to serve God in order to avoid which is
assuredly not yet of perfect charity. For the desire of the reward
is one thing, the fear of punishment another. They are different
sayings, “Whither shall I go away from Thy Spirit, and from Thy
face whither shall I flee?”21482148 and, “One thing I have sought of
the Lord, this I will seek after; that I may dwell in the house of
the Lord through all the days of my life, that I may consider the
delight of the Lord, that I be protected in His temple:”21492149 and,
“Turn not away Thy face from me:”21502150 and, “My soul longeth and
fainteth unto the courts of the Lord.”21512151 Those sayings let him have had,
who dared not to lift up his eyes to heaven; and she who was
watering with tears His feet, in order to obtain pardon for her
grievous sins; but these do thou have, who art careful about the
things of the Lord, to be holy both in body and spirit. With those
sayings there companies fear which hath torment, which 432perfect
charity casteth forth; but with these sayings there companies
chaste fear of the Lord, that abideth for ever and ever. And to
both kinds it must be said, “Be not thou high-minded, but
fear;”21522152 that man
neither of defense of his sins, nor of presumption of righteousness
set himself up. For Paul also himself, who saith, “For ye have
not received the spirit of bondage again to fear;”21532153 yet, fear
being a companion of charity, saith, “With fear and much
trembling was I towards you:”21542154 and that saying, which I have
mentioned, that the engrafted wild olive tree be not proud against
the broken branches of the olive tree, himself made use of, saying,
“Be not thou high-minded, but fear;” himself admonishing all
the members of Christ in general, saith, “With fear and trembling
work out your own salvation; for it is God Who worketh in you both
to will and to do, according to His good pleasure;”21552155 that it
seem not to pertain unto the Old Testament what is written,
“Serve the Lord in fear, and rejoice unto Him with
trembling.”21562156