Her latter days were spent close to the frontiers
of the Better Land. Her soul was filled with the
thoughts and desires of her eternal home. We
can almost watch the flame of the spirit's life
burning higher and higher--burning up the earthliness
of her nature and the last remainders of
unheavenly interests. Thus she writes:
'I see more need than I have ever seen before
to spend what there is left of my days in giving
myself daily, body and soul, to the care of Him
who is able to keep that which is committed unto
Him against that day. Not giving myself once,
but living in giving myself, until, and even when
this tabernacle is put off. The thought of putting
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it off is specially sweet sometimes. I can say, it
is this of all things which gives me most joy in
these days. Not death in itself, but the great gain
to be had after passing through it; every inclination
contrary to the will of God left behind, every
inclination to dishonour the ordinance of God left
behind--all infirmity swallowed up of strength--perfectly
conformable to the law--in the likeness
of God to enjoy Him for ever. I am sometimes so
carried away with these things that I fairly fail to
stand on the way of my duty in the things of time;
but waiting for the hour when I shall be dissolved
and be with Christ, for it is much better, although
it is very good with me here sometimes. When
my Beloved showeth Himself through the lattice,
He sometimes reveals, in a glass darkly, as much
of His glory to me as my feeble faculties can bear.
I rejoice to say in closing--I would wish to say it
with thankfulness--in spite of my sinfulness, and
the cunning of hell, of the world and its charms,
through the good grace of God I have not changed
the object of my affection till to-night: rather from
my heart I rest in His love, and joy over Him with
singing, although I cannot obtain that in the least
degree on this side of death, except with effort and violence.'
And thus she sings:
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Must I face the stormy river?
There is One to break its flood--
Christ, my great High-priest and faithful,
Christ, my all-sufficient good:
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Through His blood shall come the triumph
Over death and hell to me;
And I shall be in His likeness,
Sinless through eternity.
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Disembodied of all evil,
I shall pierce with earnest eyes
Into Calvary's deep wonders,
And its infinite surprise:
The Invisible beholding,
Who is living and was dead;
In a pure, unbroken union
With the ever-living Head.
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There I shall exalt the Person,
God's own Sacrifice Divine,
Without any veil or fancy--
And my soul like Him shall shine:
With the mystery revealèd
In His wounds, I shall commune;
Losing sight no more for ever
Of the all-belovèd Son.
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From salvation's highest fountains,
Oh, to drink with each new day!
Till my thirst for earthly pleasures
Has completely passed away:
Waiting always for my Master,
Quick to answer to His call;
Then to hold the door wide open,
And enjoy Him, all in all.
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