XIV. MEDITATION.
I WOULD not make man worse than he is, nor his condition more miserable than it is. But could I though I would? As a man cannot
flatter God, nor overpraise him, so a man cannot injure man, nor undervalue him. Thus much must necessarily be presented to
his remembrance, that those false happinesses which he hath in this world, have their times, and their seasons, and their
critical days; and they are judged and denominated according to the times when they befall us.
What poor elements are our happinesses made of, if time, time which we can scarce consider to be any thing, be an essential
part of our happiness! All things are done in some place; but if we consider place to be no more but the next hollow superficies
of the air, alas! how thin and fluid a thing is air, and how thin a film is a superficies, and a superficies of air! All things
are done in time too, but if we consider time to be but the measure of motion, and howsoever it may seem to have three
stations, past, present, and future, yet the first and last of these are not (one is not now, and the other is not yet),
and that which you call present, is not now the same that it was when you began to call it so in this line (before you sound
that word present, or that monosyllable now, the present and the now is past). If this imaginary, half-nothing time, be of
the essence of our happinesses, how can they be thought durable? Time is not so; how can they be thought to be? Time is not
so;
not so considered in any of the parts thereof. If we consider eternity, into that time never entered; eternity is not
an everlasting flux of time, but time is a short parenthesis in a long period; and eternity had been the same as it is, though
time had never been. If we consider, not eternity, but perpetuity; not that which had no time to begin in, but which shall
outlive time, and be when time shall be no more, what a minute is the life of the durablest creature compared to that! and
what a
minute is man’s life in respect of the sun’s, or of a tree? and yet how little of our life is occasion, opportunity
to receive good in; and how little of that occasion do we apprehend and lay hold of? How busy and perplexed a cobweb is the
happiness of man here, that must be made up with a watchfulness to lay hold upon occasion, which is but a little piece of
that which is nothing, time? and yet the best things are nothing without that. Honours, pleasures, possessions, presented
to us out of
time? in our decrepit and distasted and unapprehensive age, lose their office, and lose their name; they are not honours
to us that shall never appear, nor come abroad into the eyes of the people, to receive honour from them who give it; nor pleasures
to us, who have lost our sense to taste them; nor possessions to us, who are departing from the possession of them. Youth
is their critical day, that judges them, that denominates them, that inanimates and informs them, and makes them honours,
and
pleasures, and possessions; and when they come in an unapprehensive age, they come as a cordial when the bell rings
out, as a pardon when the head is off. We rejoice in the comfort of fire, but does any man cleave to it at midsummer? We are
glad of the freshness and coolness of a vault, but does any man keep his Christmas there; or are the pleasures of the spring
acceptable in autumn? If happiness be in the season, or in the climate, how much happier then are birds than men, who can
change the
climate and accompany and enjoy the same season ever.