313Letter XI.—On Fears About Confession.
I can only repeat to-day, my dear Sister, what I
have so often told you before. God wishes to make you do penance and to
sanctify you by the endurance of personal offences that wound you, by
interior crosses, and more especially by troubles of conscience. I only
ask you in all these trials for a little submission and resignation such
as you practice in the different circumstances of life, such as losses,
illnesses, infirmities, etc. I forbid you to dwell voluntarily on the
uneasiness that torments you with regard to your confessions. Be at
peace. Blind obedience can never deceive you. As for contrition which
is the only thing that you might have some reason to fear about; if
you mention in each confession a sin of your past life without going
into details you will have absolutely nothing to fear. The best sign
of having true contrition is to fall no more into grave sins, and to
do your best to get rid of those that are lighter. Therefore remain in
peace on this point, enduring patiently the different returns of these
troubles. As you are infirm these troubles will do instead of fasting or
taking the discipline, or wearing a hair shirt, but with this difference,
that whereas in these latter penitential exercises self-love can be met
with again and satisfied, in the former penances sent by our heavenly
Father to men and women for whose salvation He has a special desire,
there is only the pure will of God.