CHAPTER XIII.
A story of a barber's payments, introduced for the sake of recognizing the devil's illusions.
FOR as you hope that you can save others also, and are eager to return to your country with the hope of greater gain, hear
also on this subject a story of Abbot Macarius, very neatly and prettily invented, which he also gave to a man in a tumult
of similar desires, to cure him by a most appropriate story. "There was," said he, "in a certain city a very clever barber,
who used to shave everybody for three pence and by getting this poor and wretched sum for his work, out
of this same amount used to procure what was required for his daily food, and after having taken all care of his body,
used every day to put a hundred pence into his pocket. But while he was diligently amassing this gain, he heard that in a
city a long way off each man paid the barber a shilling as his pay. And when he found this out, `how long,' said he, `shall
I be satisfied with this beggary, so as to get with my labour a pay of three pence, when by going thither I might amass riches
by a
large gain of shillings?' And so at once taking with him the implements of his art, and using up in the expense all that
he had got together and saved during a long time, he made his way with great difficulty to that most lucrative city. And there
on the day of his arrival, he received from everyone the pay for his labour in accordance with what he had heard, and at eventide
seeing that he had gained a large number of shillings he went in delight to the butcher's to buy the food he wanted for
his supper. And when he began to purchase it for a large sum of shillings he spent on a tiny bit of meat all the shillings
that he had gained, and did not take home a surplus of even a single penny. And when he saw that his gains were thus used
up every day so that he not only failed to put by anything but could scarcely get what he required for his daily food, he
thought over the matter with himself and said: `I will go back to my city, and once more, seek those very moderate profits,
from
which, when all my bodily wants were satisfied, a daily surplus gave a growing sum to support my old age; which, though
it seemed small and trifling, yet by being constantly increased was amounting to no slight sum. In fact that gain of coppers
was more profitable to me than is this nominal one of shillings from which not only is there nothing over to be laid by, but
the necessities of my daily food are scarcely met.'" And therefore it is better for us with unbroken continuance to aim at
this
very slender profit in the desert, from which no secular cares, no worldly distractions, no pride of vainglory and vanity
can detract, and which the pressure of no daily wants can lessen (for "a small thing that the righteous hath is better than
great riches of the ungodly"12311231
) rather than to pursue those larger profits which even if they are procured by the most valuable conversion of many, are
yet absorbed by the claims of secular life and the daily leakage of distractions. For, as Solomon says, "Better is a single
handful with rest than both hands full with labour and vexation of mind."12321232
And in these allusions and inconveniences all that are at all weak are sure to be entangled, as while they are even doubtful
of their own salvation, and themselves stand in need of the teaching and instruction of others, they are incited by the devil's
tricks to convert and guide others, and as, even if they succeed in gaining any advantage from the conversion of some, they
waste by their impatience and rude manners whatever they have gained. For that will happen to them
which is described by the prophet Haggai: "And he that gathereth riches, putteth them into a bag with holes."12331233
For indeed a man puts his gains into a bag with holes, if he loses by want of self control and daily distractions of mind
whatever he appears to gain by the conversion of others. And so it results that while they fancy that they can make larger
profits by the instruction of others, they are actually deprived of their own improvement. For "There are who make themselves
out rich though possessing nothing, and there are who humble themselves amid great riches;" and: "Better is
a man who serves himself in a humble station than one who gains honour for himself and wanteth bread."12341234