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A Prayer when one begins to be sick.
O most righteous Judge, yet in Jesus Christ my gracious Father! I, wretched sinner, do here return unto thee, though driven with pain and sickness, like the prodigal child with want and hunger. I acknowledge that this sickness and pain comes not by blind chance or fortune, but by thy divine providence and special appointment. It is the stroke of thy heavy hand, which my sins have justly deserved; and the things that I feared are now fallen upon me (Job iii. 25.) Yet do I well perceive that in wrath thou rememberest mercy (Hab. iii. 2), when I consider how many and how heinous are my sins, and how few and easy are thy corrections. Thou, mightest have stricken me with some fearful and sudden death, whereby I should not have had either time or space to have called upon thee for grace and mercy; and 265so should have perished in my sins, and have been for ever condemned in hell.
But thou, O Lord, visitest me with such a fatherly chastisement, as thou usest to visit thy dearest children whom thou best lovedst; giving me, by this sickness, both warning and time to repent, and to sue unto thee for grace and pardon. I take not, therefore, O Lord, this thy visitation as any sign of thy wrath or hatred, but as an assured pledge and token of thy favour and loving-kindness, whereby thou dost with thy temporal judgments draw me to judge myself, and to repent of my wicked life, that I should not be condemned with the godless and unrepentant world. For thy holy word assures me, that “whom thou lovest, thou thus chastenest; and that thou scourgest every son that thou receivest.” That if I endure thy chastening, thou offerest thyself unto me as unto a son; and that all that continue in sin, and yet escape without correction, whereof all thy children are partakers, are bastards and not sons; and that thou chastenest me for my profit, that I may be a partaker of thy holiness. O Lord, how full of goodness is thy nature, that hast dealt with me so graciously in the time of my health and prosperity; and now, being provoked by my sins and unthankfulness, hast such fatherly and profitable ends in inflicting upon me this sickness and correction!
I confess, Lord, that thou dost justly afflict my body with sickness, for my soul was sick before of a long prosperity, and surfeited with ease, peace, plenty, and fulness of bread. And now, O Lord, I lament and mourn for my sins; “I acknowledge my wickedness, and my iniquities are always in my sight.” Oh what a wretched sinner am I, void of all goodness by nature, and full of evil by sinful custom! Oh what a world of sin have I committed against thee, whilst thy long-sufferance expected ray conversion, and thy blessings wooed me to repentance! Yet, O my God, seeing it is thy property more to respect the goodness of thy own nature than the 266deserts of sinners, I beseech thee, O Father, for thy Son Jesus Christ’s sake, and for the merits of that all-saving death which he hath voluntarily suffered for all who believe in him, have mercy upon me, according to the multitude of thy mercies; turn thy face away from my sins, and blot out all my iniquities: cast me not out of thy presence, neither reward me according to my deserts: for if thou dost reject me, who will receive me? Or who will succour me, if thou dost forsake me? But thou, O Lord, art the helper of the helpless, and in thee the fatherless findeth mercy (Hos. xiv. 3:) for though my sins be exceeding great, yet thy mercy, O Lord, far exceedeth them all; neither can I commit so many as thy grace can remit and pardon. Wash, therefore, O Christ, my sins with the virtue of thy precious blood, especially those sins which from a penitent heart I have confessed unto thee; but chiefly, O Lord, forgive me.105105Here name that sin which most troubleth thy conscience. And seeing that of thy love thou didst lay down thy life for my ransom, when I was thine enemy, O save now the price of thine own blood, when it shall cost thee but a smile upon me, or a gracious appearance in thy Father’s sight in my behalf. Reconcile me once again, O merciful Mediator, unto thy Father; for though there be nothing in me that can please him, yet I know that in thee, and for thy sake, he is well pleased with all whom thou acceptest and lovest. And if it be thy blessed will, remove this sickness from me, and restore to me my former health again, that I may live longer to set forth thy glory, and to be a comfort to my friends who depend upon me, and to procure to myself a more settled assurance of that heavenly inheritance which thou hast prepared for me. And then, Lord, thou shalt see how religiously and wisely I shall redeem the time, which heretofore I have so lewdly and profanely spent. And to the end that I may the sooner and the easier be delivered from this pain and sickness, direct me, O Lord, I beseech thee, by thy divine providence, 267to such a physician and helper, as that, by thy blessing upon the means, I may recover my former health and welfare again. And, good Lord, vouchsafe, that as thou hast sent this sickness, to me, so thou wouldst likewise be pleased to send thy Holy Spirit into my heart, whereby this present sickness may be sanctified unto me; that I may use it as thy school, wherein I may learn to know the greatness of my misery and the riches of thy mercy; that I may be so humbled at the one, that I despair not of the other; and that I may so renounce all confidence of help in myself, or in any other creature, that I may only put the whole rest of my salvation in thy all-sufficient merits. And forasmuch as thou knowest, Lord, how weak a vessel I am, full of frailty and imperfections, and that by nature I am angry and froward under every cross and affliction, O Lord, who art the giver of all good gifts, arm me with patience to endure thy blessed will and pleasure, and of thy mercy lay no more upon me than I shall be able to endure and suffer. Give me grace to behave myself in all patience, love, and meekness, unto those that shall come and visit me; that I may thankfully receive, and willingly embrace all good counsels and consolations from them; and that they may likewise see in me such a good example of patience, and hear from me such godly lessons of comfort as may be arguments of my Christian faith and profession, and instructions unto them how to behave themselves when it shall please thee to visit them with the like, affliction of sickness. I know, O Lord, I have deserved to die; and I desire not longer to live, than to amend my wicked life, and in some better measure to set forth thy glory. Therefore, O Father, if it be thy blessed will, restore me to health again, and grant me a longer life. But if thou hast, according to thy eternal decree, appointed by this sickness to call for me out of this transitory life, I resign myself into thy hands, and holy pleasure; thy blessed will be done, whether it be by life or by death. Only I beseech thee of thy mercy forgive me all my sins, and 268prepare my poor soul, that by a true faith and unfeigned repentance, she may be ready against the time that thou shalt call for her out of my sick and sinful body. O heavenly Father, who art the hearer of prayer, hear thou in heaven this my prayer, and in this extremity grant me these requests, not for any worthiness that is in me, but for the merits of thy beloved Son Jesus, my only Saviour and Mediator, for whose sake thou hast promised to hear us, and to grant whatsoever we shall ask of thee in his name. In his name, therefore, and in his words, I conclude this my imperfect supplication:—
“Our Father which art in heaven, hallowed be thy name,” &c.
Having thus reconciled thyself to God in Christ,
1. Let thy next care be to set thy house in order, as Isaiah advised King Hezekiah, making thy last will and testament, if it be not already made. If it be made, then peruse it, confirm it, and for avoiding all doubts and contention, publish it before witnesses, that, if God call for thee out of this life, it may stand in force and unalterable, as thy last will and testament; and so deliver it locked or sealed up in some box, to the keeping of a faithful friend, in the presence of honest witnesses.
2. But in making thy testament, take a religious friend’s advice how to bestow thy benevolence, and some honest lawyer’s counsel to continue it according to law.
Dispatch this before thy sickness doth increase and thy memory decay; lest otherwise thy testament prove a doatment, and so another man’s fancy rather than thy will.
3. To prevent many inconveniencies, let me recommend to thy discretion two things:
(1.) If God have blessed thee with any competent state of wealth, make thy will in thy health time. It will neither put thee farther from thy goods, nor hasten thee sooner to thy death; but it will be a greater ease to thy mind, in freeing thee from a great trouble when 269thou shalt have most need of quiet: for when thy house is set in order thou shalt be better enabled to set thy soul in order, and to dispose of thy journey towards God.
(2.) If thou hast children, give to every one of them a portion, according to thy ability, in thy lifetime, that thy life may seem an ease, and not a yoke to them; yet so give, as that thy children may be still beholden unto thee, and not thou unto them. But if thou keep all in thy hands whilst thou livest, they may thank death and not thee, for the portion that thou leavest them. If thou hast no children, and the Lord hath blest thee with a great portion of the goods of this world, and if thou meanest to bestow them upon any charitable or pious uses, put not over that good work to the trust of others, seeing thou seest how most of other men’s executors prove almost executioners. And if friends be so unfaithful in a man’s life, how much greater cause hast thou to distrust their fidelity after thy death? Lamentable experience shews how many dead men’s wills have of late either been quite concealed, utterly overthrown, or by cavils and quirks of law frustrated or altered; whereas, by the law of God, the will of the dead should not be violated (Gal. iii. 15; Heb. ix. 17), but all his godly intentions conscientiously performed and fulfilled, as in the sight of God, who, in the day of the resurrection, will be a just judge both of the quick and dead (2 Cor. v. 10; Eccl. xii. 14; Rom. ii. 15; 1 Cor. iv. 5.) And if anything should hap in his will to be ambiguous or doubtful, it should be construed as it might come nearest to the honour of God and the honest intention of the testator: but let the vengeance due to such unchristian deeds light on the actors that do them, not on the kingdom wherein they are suffered to be done. And let other rich men be warned by such wretched examples, not so to marry their minds to their, money, as that they will do no good with their goods till death divorces them. Considering, therefore, the shortness of thine 270own life, and the uncertainty of the just dealing of others after thy death, in these unjust days, let me advise thee, whom God hath blessed with ability, and an intent to do good, to become in thy lifetime thine own administrator; make thine own hands thy executors, and thine own eyes thy overseers; cause thy lantern to give her light before thee, and not behind thee; give God the glory, and thou shalt receive of him in due time the reward which of his grace and mercy he hath promised to thy good works (Gal. vi. 9; Matt. x. 42; xxv. 34, &c.; Mark. ix. 41; Luke xiv. 14; xviii. 22; 1 Cor. xv. 58; Rev. xiv. 13.)
4. Having thus set thy house and soul in order—if the determined number of thy days be not expired (Job xiv. 5)—God will either have mercy upon thee, and say, Spare him, O killing malady, that he go not down into the pit, for I have received a reconciliation (Job xxxiii. 24;) or else his fatherly providence will direct thee to such a physician and to such means as, that by his blessing upon their endeavours, thou shalt recover and be restored to thy former health again (2 Kings xx. 7; v. 7, 8, 10; John ix. 7;) but in anywise take heed that thou, nor none for thee, send to sorcerers, wizards, charmers, or enchanters for help: for this were to leave the God of Israel, and to go to Beelzebub, the god of Ekron, for help; as did wicked Ahaziah (2 Kings i. 2, 3), and to brake thy vow which thou hast made with the blessed Trinity in thy baptism; and be sure that God will never give a blessing by those means which he hath accursed (Lev. xx. 6; Deut. xviii. 10, &c.;) but if he permit Satan to cure thy body, fear lest it tend to the damnation of thy soul: thou art tried, beware! (Deut. xiii. 3.)
When thou hast sent for the physician, take heed that thou put not thy trust rather in the physician than in the Lord, as Asa. did; of whom it is said, that he sought not to the Lord in his disease, but to the physician (2 Chron. xvi. 12;) which is a kind of idolatry 271that will increase the Lord’s anger, and make the physic received ineffectual. Use, therefore, the physician as God’s instrument, and physic as God’s means. And seeing it is not lawful without prayer to use ordinary food (1 Tim. iv. 4), much less extraordinary physic, whose good effect depends upon the blessing of God, before thou takest thy physic pray, therefore, heartily unto God to bless it to thy use (Jer. viii. 22), in these or the like words:—
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